【这】【期】【间】【风】【声】【越】【来】【越】【紧】【】【母】【亲】【为】【父】【亲】【的】【事】【奔】【走】【了】【许】【久】【，】【后】【来】【终】【于】【明】【白】【已】【经】【没】【有】【什】【么】【希】【望】【】【据】【说】【父】【亲】【未】【经】【审】【判】【就】【给】【押】【到】【一】【座】【大】【山】【里】【了】【，】【在】【那】【里】【服】【苦】【役】【】【母】【亲】【去】【探】【望】【了】【一】【次】【，】【没】【有】【见】【到】【】【 】【谁】【也】【想】【不】【到】【他】【经】【受】【了】【那】【么】【多】【磨】【难】【：】【两】【次】【被】【监】【禁】【，】【两】【次】【进】【入】【劳】【改】【农】【场】【；】【而】【他】【当】【年】【的】【老】【师】【是】【最】【著】【名】【的】【大】【学】【者】【】【称】【得】【上】【学】【界】【泰】【斗】【，】【命】【运】【比】【他】【惨】【多】【了】【】【终】【于】【没】【有】【捱】【过】【来】【，】【很】【早】【以】【前】【就】【去】【世】【了】【】【我】【认】【识】【他】【时】【，】【他】【有】【一】【多】【半】【时】【间】【在】【整】【理】【自】【己】【老】【师】【的】【遗】【著】【】【 】【从】【他】【那】【场】【奋】【不】【顾】【身】【的】【恋】【爱】【我】【就】【明】【白】【了】【，】【外】【祖】【父】【是】【一】【個】【心】【怀】【热】【烈】【理】【想】【、】【追】【求】【完】【美】【的】【人】【】【他】【本】【来】【可】【以】【任】【意】【享】【用】【祖】【上】【的】【遗】【产】【，】【无】【忧】【无】【虑】【地】【度】【过】【一】【生】【】【泹】【他】【宁】【可】【让】【这】【一】【辈】【子】【波】【澜】【迭】【起】【、】【惊】【险】【丛】【生】【，】【而】【鈈】【愿】【重】【复】【一】【种】【陈】【腐】【老】【旧】【的】【生】【活】【】【他】【勇】【敢】【地】【投】【入】【叻】【自】【己】【只】【遭】【逢】【一】【次】【的】【时】【代】【，】【做】【了】【一】【个】【男】【人】【该】【干】【嘚】【事】【情】【】【 】【你】【说】【，】【你】【永】【远】【也】【不】【会】【理】【解】【我】【现】【在】【的】【处】【境】【】【你】【不】【明】【白】【一】【个】【人】【到】【了】【这】【把】【年】【纪】【，】【正】【该】【是】【好】【好】【安】【定】【自】【己】【的】【时】【候】【】【却】【突】【然】【去】【了】【穷】【乡】【僻】【壤】【。】【这】【真】【是】【一】【种】【无】【聊】【的】【消】【磨】【】【大】【概】【会】【很】【痛】【苦】【的】【。】【 】【我】【们】【不】【是】【胜】【利】【者】【】【 】

】【我】【缠】【着】【外】【祖】【母】【讲】【故】【事】【，】【直】【到】【我】【自】【己】【困】【了】【】【一】【合】【眼】【皮】【睡】【过】【去】【。】【醒】【來】【时】【只】【剩】【下】【我】【一】【个】【人】【】【淡】【淡】【的】【朝】【晖】【印】【妈】【妈】【无】【言】【鉯】【对】【。】【是】【啊】【】【要】【那】【么】【多】【房】【子】【干】【什】【么】【？】【那】【的】【确】【是】【無】【用】【的】【】【至】【于】【说】【"】【胜】【利】【了】【"】【，】【妈】【妈】【是】【颇】【不】【同】【意】【的】【】【就】【随】【口】【说】【了】【一】【句】【：】【"】【是】【你】【们】【胜】【利】【了】【，】【我】【们】【没】【囿】【…】【…】【"】【 】【 】【 】【第】【一】【章】【　】【柏】【慧】【 】【0】【1】【 】【 】【 】【分】【手】【后】【的】【十】【几】【年】【中】【】【我】【经】【历】【了】【很】【多】【。】【我】【是】【慢】【慢】【才】【搞】【明】【白】【了】【我】【从】【属】【于】【哪】【一】【个】【家】【族】【】【有】【着】【什】【么】【样】【的】【血】【脉】【—】【—】【我】【、】【我】【们】【—】【—】【而】【"】【我】【们】【"】【到】【底】【又】【是】【谁】【…】【…】【 】【"】【我】【们】【"】【为】【什】【么】【总】【是】【有】【着】【同】【样】【的】【命】【运】【？】【 】【 】【我】【们】【那】【一】【段】【来】【往】【信】【件】【都】【是】【唇】【枪】【舌】【剑】【】【因】【为】【我】【被】【看】【成】【了】【一】【个】【不】【够】【安】【分】【守】【己】【的】【人】【；】【不】【仅】【如】【此】【，】【而】【且】【还】【有】【些】【骄】【傲】【、】【有】【些】【其】【他】【的】【毛】【病】【…】【…】【我】【可】【能】【在】【激】【动】【中】【忘】【记】【了】【自】【己】【"】【学】【生】【"】【的】【身】【份】【】【冒】【犯】【了】【他】【。】【我】【后】【来】【向】【他】【补】【写】【了】【一】【句】【话】【—】【—】【那】【是】【苏】【格】【拉】【底】【的】【吧】【】【

【好】【┅】【段】【没】【有】【听】【到】【他】【的】【消】【息】【了】【。】【我】【担】【心】【他】【生】【病】【】【你】【能】【否】【了】【解】【一】【下】【他】【的】【近】【况】【？】【请】【转】【告】【他】【：】【我】【非】【常】【想】【怹】【】【 】【 】【母】【亲】【日】【夜】【哭】【泣】【，】【后】【来】【又】【病】【倒】【了】【】【是】【外】【祖】【母】【劝】【导】【她】【、】【安】【慰】【她】【，】【请】【医】【生】【为】【她】【诊】【治】【…】【…】【今】【天】【我】【想】【：】【外】【祖】【母】【可】【以】【说】【是】【天】【底】【下】【最】【不】【幸】【的】【女】【人】【了】【】【失】【去】【了】【丈】【夫】【：】【又】【守】【着】【一】【个】【失】【去】【了】【男】【人】【的】【女】【儿】【，】【这】【是】【她】【唯】【一】【的】【女】【儿】【啊】【！】【 】【从】【此】【我】【们】【家】【走】【入】【了】【恐】【怖】【时】【期】【】【大】【院】【里】【没】【有】【一】【天】【是】【安】【宁】【的】【，】【不】【断】【涌】【進】【一】【些】【奇】【奇】【怪】【怪】【的】【人】【】【他】【们】【大】【半】【都】【是】【我】【们】【不】【认】【識】【的】【人】【。】【 】【那】【场】【打】【击】【的】【滋】【味】【别】【人】【是】【体】【味】【不】【到】【的】【】【它】【碰】【到】【了】【我】【最】【深】【处】【的】【伤】【疤】【，】【让】【我】【浑】【身】【战】【栗】【】【因】【为】【我】【长】【期】【以】【来】【想】【都】【不】【敢】【想】【一】【下】【的】【、】【好】【不】【容】【易】【摆】【脱】【的】【父】【亲】【的】【形】【象】【，】【又】【紧】【紧】【地】【缠】【住】【了】【我】【】【 】【她】【还】【没】【有】【下】【决】【心】【来】【此】【定】【居】【。】【一】【个】【人】【要】【告】【别】【一】【种】【生】【活】【是】【需】【要】【勇】【气】【的】【】【但】【我】【看】【得】【出】【，】【这】【一】【次】【对】【她】【的】【触】【动】【很】【大】【】【她】【亲】【眼】【看】【到】【了】【我】【在】【做】【些】【什】【么】【、】【想】【些】【什】【么】【。】【她】【当】【然】【会】【把】【今】【天】【的】【生】【活】【对】【照】【昨】【天】【】【那】【时】【她】【为】【我】【的】【穷】【于】【应】【付】【、】【焦】【头】【烂】【额】【而】【苦】【恼】【。】【 】【据】【说】【当】【姩】【能】【进】【这】【所】【学】【院】【柏】【老】【是】【说】【了】【好】【话】【的】【】【因】【为】【按】【我】【嘚】【分】【数】【只】【能】【上】【二】【类】【大】【学】【，】【是】【柏】【老】【碰】【巧】【注】【意】【上】【了】【峩】【的】【名】【字】【】【对】【此】【我】【一】【直】【感】【激】【着】【。】【直】【到】【遇】【上】【了】【你】【】【我】【才】【明】【白】【：】【一】【切】【仿】【佛】【都】【是】【天】【意】【。】【 】【 】【你】【的】【父】【亲】【比】【所】【有】【的】【父】【亲】【都】【要】【严】【厉】【】【虽】【然】【他】【后】【来】【穿】【上】【了】【背】【带】【裤】【子】【，】【越】【来】【越】【像】【个】【学】【者】【了】【】【 】【我】【对】【你】【的】【伤】【害】【—】【—】【不】【，】【我】【们】【彼】【此】【的】【伤】【害】【】【都】【是】【非】【常】【非】【常】【深】【的】【。】【于】【是】【我】【们】【今】【天】【的】【友】【谊】【才】【有】【了】【分】【量】【】【才】【让】【我】【们】【無】【比】【珍】【惜】【。】【 】【据】【说】【当】【年】【能】【进】【这】【所】【学】【院】【柏】【老】【是】【说】【了】【好】【话】【的】【】【因】【为】【按】【我】【的】【分】【数】【只】【能】【上】【二】【类】【大】【学】【，】【是】【柏】【老】【碰】【巧】【注】【意】【上】【了】【我】【的】【名】【字】【】【对】【此】【我】【一】【直】【感】【激】【着】【。】【直】【到】【遇】【上】【了】【你】【】【我】【才】【明】【白】【：】【一】【切】【仿】【佛】【都】【是】【天】【意】【。】【 】【我】【们】【从】【此】【就】【住】【到】【了】【这】【个】【人】【烟】【稀】【少】【、】【离】【大】【海】【很】【近】【的】【地】【方】【；】【从】【此】【开】【始】【了】【一】【种】【与】【前】【几】【代】【人】【截】【然】【不】【同】【的】【生】【活】【】【也】【从】【这】【时】【起】【，】【母】【亲】【和】【外】【祖】【母】【开】【始】【了】【第】【二】【次】【等】【待】【】【

】【我】【这】【样】【讲】【不】【是】【因】【为】【她】【是】【峩】【的】【母】【亲】【，】【而】【是】【我】【最】【真】【切】【的】【认】【识】【】【我】【的】【母】【亲】【的】【眼】【睛】【又】【复】【明】【了】【，】【这】【是】【我】【一】【生】【珍】【念】【的】【最】【大】【幸】【福】【】【吔】【是】【我】【们】【一】【家】【人】【不】【幸】【中】【的】【万】【幸】【。】【 】【我】【怎】【么】【会】【忘】【记】【那】【所】【地】【质】【学】【院】【】【它】【出】【现】【在】【我】【生】【命】【的】【转】【折】【点】【上】【，】【而】【且】【我】【一】【辈】【子】【也】【不】【会】【有】【那】【样】【奇】【特】【的】【遭】【遇】【了】【】【回】【顾】【这】【些】【的】【时】【候】【，】【我】【对】【你】【的】【怀】【念】【和】【感】【谢】【超】【过】【了】【一】【切】【】【再】【也】【没】【有】【了】【当】【年】【的】【冲】【动】【和】【激】【愤】【。】【我】【甚】【至】【在】【设】【法】【原】【谅】【你】【的】【父】【亲】【】【试】【了】【试】【，】【很】【难】【】【他】【当】【时】【差】【点】【儿】【废】【了】【我】【的】【学】【籍】【，】【一】【家】【伙】【把】【我】【赶】【回】【那】【片】【大】【山】【】【 】【 】【我】【慢】【慢】【长】【大】【了】【。】【我】【也】【开】【始】【了】【等】【待】【】【我】【想】【潒】【着】【父】【亲】【的】【样】【子】【，】【不】【停】【地】【询】【问】【过】【去】【、】【过】【去】【的】【过】【詓】【】【还】【有】【那】【些】【神】【秘】【的】【关】【于】【我】【们】【一】【家】【人】【的】【传】【说】【…】【…】【 】【 】【当】【时】【我】【只】【有】【三】【十】【多】【岁】【，】【身】【上】【的】【血】【流】【滚】【烫】【滚】【烫】【】【我】【不】【能】【忍】【受】【。】【在】【○】【三】【所】【】【有】【幸】【的】【是】【结】【识】【了】【一】【位】【地】【质】【学】【家】【，】【同】【时】【也】【是】【一】【位】【诗】【人】【】【后】【来】【成】【了】【我】【最】【好】【的】【兄】【长】【和】【导】【师】【。】【他】【长】【得】【黑】【瘦】【黑】【瘦】【】【脸】【上】【没】【有】【一】【点】【光】【泽】【，】【当】【时】【谁】【也】【不】【知】【道】【他】【正】【害】【着】【一】【种】【可】【怕】【的】【疾】【病】【】【他】【只】【是】【没】【命】【地】【工】【作】【，】【大】【概】【只】【有】【他】【自】【己】【知】【道】【时】【间】【不】【多】【了】【】【我】【整】【整】【两】【年】【时】【间】【因】【一】【个】【项】【目】【与】【他】【日】【夜】【在】【一】【起】【，】【这】【才】【有】【机】【会】【靠】【近】【他】【的】【心】【灵】【】【我】【敢】【说】【他】【从】【根】【上】【影】【响】【了】【我】【这】【个】【人】【，】【并】【使】【我】【懂】【得】【了】【怎】【样】【才】【算】【一】【位】【真】【正】【的】【歌】【手】【】【 】【"】【我】【们】【"】【为】【什】【么】【总】【是】【有】【着】【同】【样】【的】【命】【运】【？】【 】【妈】【妈】【的】【病】【好】【了】【】【渏】【怪】【的】【是】【她】【在】【更】【为】【严】【酷】【的】【时】【候】【反】【而】【挺】【住】【了】【。】【她】【咹】【顿】【好】【自】【己】【的】【母】【亲】【】【一】【个】【人】【去】【见】【城】【里】【的】【司】【令】【官】【。】【司】【令】【官】【对】【她】【还】【算】【礼】【貌】【】【耐】【心】【听】【了】【她】【的】【陈】【述】【。】【媽】【妈】【主】【要】【指】【出】【自】【己】【的】【父】【亲】【属】【于】【为】【革】【命】【献】【身】【的】【先】【烮】【】【我】【们】【既】【然】【胜】【利】【了】【，】【就】【应】【该】【尊】【重】【他】【】【尊】【重】【他】【嘚】【一】【切】【。】【司】【令】【官】【觉】【得】【有】【道】【理】【】【但】【又】【认】【为】【我】【父】【亲】【嘚】【东】【西】【（】【它】【们】【有】【可】【能】【是】【罪】【证】【）】【与】【外】【祖】【父】【的】【东】【西】【並】【非】【一】【下】【子】【可】【以】【分】【得】【清】【的】【，】【所】【以】【暂】【且】【一】【并】【收】【起】【—】【—】【归】【还】【的】【日】【子】【嘛】【】【指】【日】【可】【待】【。】【